Finally putting my book together

Here is a sneak peak ~ stay tuned for updated info


Psalm 139
O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord. You hem me in - behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me; your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, fro darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost being; you knot me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one to them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you. If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men! They speak of you with evil intent; your adversaries misuse your name. Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord, and abhor those who rise up against you? I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies. Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.





Introduction

Psalm 139 has given me new meaning; God really does know everything about me before I was even born. God was there the day I was born with open arms unlike my mom. When I need to be loved God showed me love unlike my mom. God has been through every valley that I have encountered thus far.

Here you will hear my story – I grew up in an alcohol abusive home that consisted of daily verbal, physical, and sexual abuse I made it out alive but broken inside. Living this and breathing this life brought me into three unhealthy, alcoholic, abusive marriages.

After my third marriage I realized that enough is enough. I am worth much more and deserve much more as my two precious sons do too.

My desire this past year has been to know Gods love for me and to be healed. God, help me be honest with myself. Show me what has been broken so that I can be free from this long life of bondage.

You shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free
John 8:32